It seems that at the ripe old age of 31, I have settled... I couldn't believe it... I used to pattern my life according to "Anne of Green Gables," all bursting with optimism and joy. What happened? Life happened. Realities encroached on my imagination. The mundane have taken over my life.
What happened?
I lived my life like a zombie, that's what and it took Celestine Chua's 30 DLBL to shake me off my stupor. Life has been an uphill battle since I've started this challenge. Fear has often held me back. My lack of faith. My distrust with the people's ability to be able to help me realize my dreams. Reflecting about my life, I've realized that the synchronicity that Celes was talking about, I have lived it, continuously in my life. It's just a matter of recognizing these events.
It's funny how even when I have failed to dream, the universe has not allowed me to settle. Just when I was floating along, letting life happen, the universe has given me what I needed at the exact time when I needed it. He or she has given me beautiful people who have served as my mentors, my guides to help me at that exact moment. I thank Celes and Kate for being with me at this time. I have had these spiritual guides, if you will call them that, in my life and I'd like to thank them with this poem I made way back in 1997 when I was still writing, when I was still confident with my writing.
To Kate and Celes
I was a rosebud
all shut up in a
green sheath,
afraid of the world
and what it may bring.
My cramped world
was just right for me.
I was uncomfortable
but I felt I was safe
from the strange clamor
of the world outside.
Then your hand came
with strong gentleness,
opening my self
one petal at a time
carefully...
lovingly...
I fought against it
hard...
reluctant...
It hurt to pry my own
world open.
Then I saw the light
radiating from your face.
I felt vulnerable and afraid
but your smile reflected the sun
and banished all my fears.
I basked in the sunshine.
warmed by her constant rays
bringing freedom and love.
And I see you,
who patiently opened
a frightened bud
and I see myself
so beautiful
because of you
and the sun.
4 comments:
Miss Guimba, this is simply beautiful. Thanks so much for sharing this poem with me (and Kate), and thanks for your love and kindness. Thanks for illuminating 30DLBL and other participants' journeys with your presence. I'm glad to have known you through 30DLBL, and look forward to connecting with you more. And is there a reason why you stopped writing? I read in your previous article that you want to write inspirational stories that women can relate to - and I think you should do so if you want to! There are so many lives out there waiting to be touched and opened up through your words, and it's a pity if this talent is kept to yourself!
That is a beautiful poem, Marj. I admit that I myself have become too lazy at times. I became too complacent in my comfort zone and I do realize I have to shake things up a bit. Sabi nga nila, galaw galaw baka ma-stroke XD
I have decided to really look for a new job next year. Time will not wait for me forever.
Miss Guimba, this is the most beautiful poem that I read in the last years, oh, how much I love its tenderness.. You created such a soft piece of jewel, it touched my heart with its beauty and I was so amazed to find a piece of myself in your words..
If you don`t mind, I`ll copy this poem in my life handbook, and I`ll relate to it thinking not only to the angels which are Celes and Kate for me(or us), but to you also.. Thank you so, so much for it and for being one of my September angels too..
I wish from all my heart that you`ll use your wonderful, inspiring gift more and that you`ll write again, because, as Celes said, your words are truly touching and illuminating others souls and lives.. thank you..
Dear Andreea, by all means, please use it. It's my first time to share my poems with anybody and I'm glad it touched your life. Your participation in the 30 DLBL is amazing. Your joy in doing these activities shines through all your comments. I enjoyed reading each one of them.
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