Missed... Day 4... But It's Okay

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This is Day 4-5 of my 30-Day Blogging Challenge which coincides with my joining Celestine Chua's 30-Day Live a Better Life Challenge.

I knew it... I knew that I'll miss yesterday's post because I was overwhelmed with tasks that I needed to do... work-related stuff that I didn't want to forgo because there are people who are depending on them... Plus, I haven't had a decent night's sleep the past few days. Honestly, for those mothers who work full-time jobs with full-time mothering responsibilities, my hat's off to you. How can you seriously do it? I have a nanny and a mother-in-law assisting my mothering. Then my MIL had the flu and I had to take over, and I didn't have a decent night's sleep until last night.

I should be banging my head on the wall right now the way I do when I make a mistake or do not deliver. The old Miss Guimba would have cowered in shame and left this project. But I started this project with a mission to be kind to myself, so like my little girl would say after she watched "Meet the Robinsons," "Keep moving forward."

Yesterday's task was to discover your mission in life. I tried this exercise and I can never do it. First is I was afraid that I will never discover my purpose and then second, I'll discover the wrong one. Then, I'd be living my life with a false purpose and when I'm about to die, I'll look at my life and discover that I was chasing the wrong dream or purpose... See, there's that fear again? So the moment I saw this in Celestine Chua's blog, I was filled with dread again.... then there were those deadlines looming and I chose the easier path and worked on the deadlines instead... worked myself to exhaustion so I wouldn't have to face the task.

I woke up, though, feeling refreshed and ready to tackle the task. I know that you're supposed to fight through this exercise; some said they were on the 800th answer before it finally hit the spot. I got mine the first time, possibly because I've been mulling around this one for about a month. Somewhere at the back of my mind, I was thinking about it...

I discovered I knew it all along... It's even written in my blog profile description:

My purpose in life is to discover beauty in myself, in others, and the world, and to be able to share that beauty with them.

Too general, maybe... I'm not even sure if this is a purpose, but by God did it give me peace to finally be able to write it down.

How about you? Have you thought about why you are here on earth and what you're supposed to do in this life? Are you living your life's purpose?